Apologies in advance for the personal nature of this post but my blog has always been about expression of thought - normal posts will resume as soon as if you don't want to read this x
7 years ago today I lost one of the two most important people on my life - my dad. It's hard to believe it's been 7 years. So much has changed in my life since that awful night. I'm not the same person I know that for certain - experiences change you sometimes for the better, sometime for the worse - with me its hard to say. In some ways I grew up very quickly and matured from what was a 23 year old girl to what I am now a 31 year old woman with life experience, who had experienced pain and heartache but above all overwhelming love. 7 years seems such a long time and then sometimes it seems like the blink of an eye. I still remember sitting in the hospital in the night of November 4th / 5th listing to fireworks going off -maybe that's why they give me the creeps now - they say remember, remember 5th November - it's one date I am unlikely to ever forget now. My mum and I have planned a quiet day of reflection - we are going to go to the cemetery later to lay some flowers and then we are coming home to a nice curry I've made and a good bottle of wine. Time is no healer but it helps you to cope and above all accept - Rest In Peace Dad I'll love you always xx
Aww, Big hugs hun. xxxxx
ReplyDeleteIm so sorry that you lost your dad! I bet he would be very proud of the person you are now
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Hello Lou, exactly three months ago I lost my last grandparent, my Grandma. it was awful and heartbreaking and even writing about it now makes the tears just flow out freely. I can only imagine what it must have been like for you losing your father, after all we kind of expect grandparents to go (as painful as that might be), but parents seem indestructible somehow. A huge and warm hug, Anna xx
ReplyDeleteI hope today isn't too hard for you hun xx Hugs xx
ReplyDeletetfs something so personal and a part of your life with us. sending tons of hugs your way. it is very hard to lose someone you love. my grandpa died almost a year ago...so i sort of know what you're going through. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteThinking of you x Maybe try and think of the fireworks as a celebration of his life. I hope your day isn't too tough. x
ReplyDeleteLou! Honey, words fail in circumstances like this one! I wish I could give you a real big and intense hug.
ReplyDeletexxx honey! :(
Awww Lou reading that made me fill up :( I can't imagine losing one of my parents and Im dreading the day that I do.
ReplyDeleteRemember the good times tonight with your mum, the times he made you smile and laugh.
*Hugs*
Jo.. xxx
Hope today is not too hard for you. Big hugs for you & your mum and I'm thinking of you :) xx
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry hon. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteThis post brought a lot of tears to my eyes. Love xxxxxx
This is so touching. You wrote about it beautifully. Admire you being strong on this day! Hugs
ReplyDeleteSending some love, hugs and strength your way. xxx
ReplyDeletei'm sorry to hear, hope today's okay for you x
ReplyDeleteAw Lou I'm sorry :(
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you. It must be so hard getting over a parents death.
Lots of love xxxxx
I hope today ended up being ok hun. I tagged you on this new tag I had but don't worry if you don't feel like it http://macalicious-iheartcosmetics.blogspot.com/2009/11/tag-i-hit-pan.html mwah xx
ReplyDeleteThat was lovely Louise, my thoughts are with you and your mum xxx
ReplyDeleteSorry Lou - I only just read this post - I really hope the day wasn't too difficult for you, and that you were able to celebrate your dad's life in a good way - Lots of love xxx
ReplyDeleteWhat courage ad strength you have. I amd sure he watches over you and is right with you every day.
ReplyDeleteEmma :)
I'm so sorry to hear this- the loss of parents always makes me feel so sad. I hope the day wasn't too hard and you got to remember all of the lovely things about your Dad xoxo
ReplyDeleteHaven't been online much in the past few days so have just seen this, thinking of you and your mum x
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your mam. Big hugs to you both xx
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